yesterday,
3 hours to him.
3 hours to her.

now too :D

HAPPY 27TH JACQ :D

beach to bitch.
oh haha later later later.
its fun.

haha someone is not picking it up.

stayed over at donna's.
absolute vodka, peach ice cream
red bedsheets, gray comforter,
pictures and smiles and hands
cartoons and phonecalls :D

haha waking up in the morning.
cartoons, bread and milo.
left, miko's house.
parkway and east coast.

pictures and rain,
tampines, rock fever.
central park and homed.

sometimes when you just dont get it.
i hate it and thats that.

pretty day :D

phonecalls :D
thunderstorm and phonecall in the morning.
poor thing.

leaving soon,
that is fun.

i like it like that.
HAHA, dont be childish.

FUCKSHIT.

dont sheild yourself with these phony lies,
with that dumb wince or that fine grin.

whats the point?

phones are pretty things.
trust me :D

pretty much happy.
oh yes, CKbe. MAHA.

repetition is a sign of stupidity
repetition is a sign of stupidity
repetition is a sign of stupidity
repetition is a sign of stupidity

so it all comes to a conclusion that i am not very bright.
i make stupid decision for self satisfaction.
but im not satisfied enough to be happy.
and im not happy enough to be satisfied.

i feel so contradicting think i should start eating grass.
ohPOO.

happy potter,
i feel like drinking ribena oh HA.
been missing out alot on my silly babes at the back of class,
miss them much.

i'd rather spend time with strangers :D

CAKE-AKE+ASK-AS+BE=_______
go figure.

:D what a bore.

things to clarify,
posts are vague so dont get me wrong if i sound like im directing anything to anyone cause YOU can be anyone.
yes, no misunderstandings.

BE GOOD.
go listen to muse :D

its not good to think too much.

" she talk big one lah,
love to say how GREAT she is and all those shit.
she love to discriminate ppl too"

you can choose to believe it or not.
maybe you just have to see for yourself,
others have seen. and thats that.

DO SOMETHING SMART PLEASE?

i am nobody,
and nobody is perfect.

so tell me,
whats contradicting.
YOU or this.

phoned till break of dawn
j and m, :D
much joy, much learnt.
oh HAHA.

but sometimes,
i would rather be the foolish one.
sometimes,
i dont wanna care too.just so superficial.

you can tell whatever you want,
to anyone, anytime
i dont really give a fuck about it,
i dont know what joy you get by doing so.
FUCKINGLIES.

your just a fusion of THOSE two.

if you have anything to spit out,
spit it on my face, why the back?
its silly how you fuss over minor things
that have a high possibility of not being true,
but well, you just choose to think that way.

guai lan.HA
hokkien hokkien hokkien ((:

if you feel awkward,
why dont you leave?
were you suppose to belong?

i want the thing that belongs to me back:D
SOON.

before you think of lies to spin,
try swallowing it first.
strip that facade,
lie naked.

fake,

i read a particular stranger's blog.
that nostalgic feeling is back again.

i miss the times we just sit and do nothing,
the times when we acted silly and just be ourselves.
we sing, we drink, we played
everything was bliss,
except the animosity.

the old times,
was it never meant to be?

i really dont know.
dont ask me why someone is calling me now.
i dont like to rekindle the feeling,
ever again.
DOORMAT, twice.

it sucks. just leave me with nothing and nothing.
ill be happy enough with a mirror, a paper clip and something not that sharp.

its good to get invited,
but it never was fun to face the problems,
meet the problems and do something about it.

just cherish the one you have now,
before its too late.

why are words of consolation so stereotypical.

donna's leaving tomorrow,
LETS GO TO THE AIRPORT :D

its either intentionally or you're just carrying a grudge.

i have not much idea what i can really spit out from my mouth now,
i have not much thoughts and actions that'll be clever enough to make you happy.
i have not much wisdom to do whats right.
i have a blackhole drawing me in.

its time to realise,
nothing is actually good for you.

ive gotten people into deep shit and i feel fucked.

eunos, miko,
marine terrace, shoes,
bus, maria, tabbi,
pictures, arcade,
babes, arcade,
them, some pretty.
reminiscing.

macs, talks,
messages, lollipop,
arcade, that one inch,
that distant, so near yet so far.

i know its never gonna work.
EVER AGAIN.

blah and bedok
drinks and dumbshits,
screwed j up.

why cant i pour my regrets into a papercup and dispose it.
aching and it sucks.

why, just answer this,
ill be satisfied.

things are bad, even though it sounds good,
things are good, even though it sounds bad.
so which one actually made sense?

muse is goodshit.

IM SORRY, im a fucking dumb bitch.
its not use being jealous or envy.
i know IT has to end,
ive stopped and its hard to get IT back.
just lock a gun into my mouth.

the end.
its really bad.

where's my personal PSL huh?
KIM ARH KIM!
i need to talk to you.

ANYWAY, ALL THANKS TO ME :D
yes, let me choke on spilt ink.

am i suppose to say sorry?AHA.

i dont wanna hear that anymore,
that gruff voice of impurity.
i have no idea what im talking about.
but thats that.

im sorry if you're in trouble.
but what can i do,
you cant cry over spilt milk.

this way, maybe you'll hate me,
and push me towards giving up.
NOT BAD.

i wanna sing craig david's song,
i just dont love you no more.
that song, one day.

maybe the fact is,
im not even in the picture.
or maybe just that speck of unwanted cut,
seal it up and picture perfect.

maybe thats all you wanted.
pride and fame.

and perhaps i was just your regret.

towned, those babes <3
kembangan, jln tuakong.
CHARMAINE'S PARTY :D
unwanted fucks, dampened.
digging for a hole,
just to hide the things i dont want you to see,ever again.

this fuzzy feeling,
pushing a lump to the throat.

a call now,
basking in the sun,with the many.
and YOU.
aiyah no thank you lah.

ma, tell me when its over.
i dont like shows that end unhappily ever after.

up there, where you see just two.
hands were the master
the undesirable dalliance.
basking in the moonlight.
soaked in chlorine.

flashbacks and bitter sweet memories.
struggling with the past and present tense.
crossing that fine line to moving on,
or just staying on and bleed myself dry.

a girl and a girl.
one threatened to slit,
the other promised not to leave,
sweet huh?

you taught me a lesson,
ill never involve the emotions.
this way, when you cross the road and die,
at least i wont cry.

what if its over?

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesnt even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all (((:

rainbow beside the moon.
i wanna see more of it,
just with you :D

anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE <3

melt like mars bars, just the arms.

i want you to know.
and if you want to know, i know you can know.
if you wanna know.
and if you know im talking about you,
just go. a user and a password.

you'll dig it all out.
its all about you :D

and the reason is you.

39 more minutes 39 more minutes.
AHA, leaving leaving leaving soon.

i had a horrible dream.
i had horrible horrible acne.
i nearly died. but i dreamt of Y too,
i was HAPPY.

oh well.i dont want any STUPID disappointments please.
put the lime in the coke you nut :D

someone made me really really really really happy.
lets play a game of pictionary and guess who :D

but when all good things come to an end,
its still disappointment.
so dont get your hopes too high.
you're always too fast for me.
cant it just slow down for a while.
literally (X

for now, ill just sit and smile.
but why now?

aha, my fate with the old ladies.
and i think joo owes me sushi.

irresistable lah. AHAHA.

i bet you'll think its me.
but hun, i have a life alright.

hear the silence,
its some pathetic souls dying inside.
yes, sit and watch the world crumble.
wait for it to come to an end.

i hope you're not sitting with me :D

i want it so badly till i cant get it anymore.
you give love a bad name.

I hope that I can seem flawless to you


Looking, laughing, talking all your shit
Wondering if you live your life just so you can fit
Could it be real
Or you're a fake

Life must be empty when living a lie
With something to hide and nothing to show
You have learned nothing but how to destroy
Things that friends love you couldn't leave alone

Someday it's gonna hit you between the eyes
that the seeds have already been sown
Find your own garden because you still need space to grow
Until that time you will remain alone

Don't try to come around with your pathetic lies
cause I can see it in your eyes
that you will always be the same
and you will never have to say goodbye
it's time for truth and not for lies..
that you have always told
your trust was bought and sold you're all alone

somewhere in this lonely game of sympathy there is a selfish dream

i was blind to overlook that facade,
that deep crack in the skin,
leads me to your bitter soul.
thanks, i tasted.
bye i hated.

self denial

You made sorrow sound like a good friend

lies can't pretend, just another way of thinking
people can change when it seems they're not there for you
truth cannot lie, never heard a better word that trust.
let me count the ways that I feel so sorry
when it rains it drains the spirit dry
we all have our mishaps, misfortunes, misopportunities
and the strength to carry on consider yourself free.
and you don't deserve this.

find your life,
grab it tight,
think about it, and maybe do a little soul searching.
its good for you, and maybe everyone.
thanks :D

i dont like you no more.bitch ((:

i see you clinging, stereotyping just to feel comfort, just to belong
desperate for meaning to make sense of your life
let me try to make you understand.
you got it wrong

youre not gonna catch me waving flags over my head
looking straight and standing tall
i refuse to build the wall by adding my own bricks
that separate us all

i'd rather die than be a part of your pride.

maths, its screwed.
HAHA, talking to some silly girl about stuff.
plans for tmr and friday.
YAY im not seeing her.
sigh.

would i be out of line, if i said i miss you :D


KIM:
haha kim is the best PSL lah, haha you silly you. ill tell you when i see alright? haha yes, i can give up so easily :D:D:D its good isnt it. HAHA baby wakerman HAHAHA. ((:

ill go on a mini hiatus,
away from some bitches who's basking in their new found glory.

aye, thanks arh, thanks.
you hide your lies with a smudge,
and bury your past in black,
hoping no one will dig them out,
ill exhibit them into an array of seven deadly sins.
the way you got yourself tangled in that folds of velvet,
i hope you stumble and you choke on yourself.
yes, thats that.

i hate you now, thats real.

and KIM:
haha when were you worth it?
anyway kim. its over lah.
haha and please dont say out the name thank you you.
HAHA :D

when things are bad, its bad.
AHA, i cant even watch my happytreefriends.
ok so deprive of cartoon violence lah,
slap me with something that leaves a mark on my face.
thank you you (:

i think kim is really silly lah,
thanks for your silly stuff HAHA :D

ok catching up with silly old friends,
i am quite happy, at least i know sometimes i can do without you :D

oh i sound so emotional.
ah, i need a break.HA

here, a little jealousy,
for you to waste on me

i need black and checkered bedsheets :D

phone rings, YOU ((((((:
7.38, i smile.
just dont make it ugly, ever again.

thats when i love you.

when you can't quite match your clothes
or when you laugh at your own jokes
that's when I love you
i love you more than you know.

FINALLY, with many more disappointments.
met meina, she got me TOP ((((((:
MAHA, fer and her.
bused and talks,
cab and parkway,
jasmine and silly things.
yes, thats all and i hate it.

the end.

oh yes,
kim:
you did not teach me at all.you were my distraction lah.HAHA.

anyway, just thursday.
stupid people must go to school tomorrow :D

ohyes, im suppose to post alot of HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.
haha,so kim dont be shy.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.

oh well, actually its suppose to be BELATED,but who cares.
thanks for your dog poo :D:D:D

they say there's 6 other people that looks like you in the world,
is there anyone with the same feelings as you, at the same time?

HAHA, i think i found one for myself,
plus (HAHA) go figure.

eyes closed, just you.
creeping right into my vein, choked.
i feel like giving up on alot of things.
im so tired of fearing what may be of today,
that unpredictable versatility.
however, it may just change and become another thing the next day.
i dont want to be happy for a moment and sad the other.

i seriously hate myself.

today was a big disappointment.

but would i be out of line if i said i miss you.
i miss you lah.